It’s been a while… I have just had a severe lack of motivation to process any of my thoughts to put them down on paper. But, here I am back where I belong, doing what always seems to feel the most normal to me, writing my thoughts. I have been feeling completely off lately, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and even financially. It wasn’t the same feeling I had late last year before my bout with depression kicked up. This is more of a fallen off the bandwagon type feeling. I started the year off eating healthy, working out, I might not have lost a ton of weight but I was about 15 full pounds down and of course, I have gained that back. Although I have saved more money than I had in a long time I have had to dip into those savings because I was kicking way too…
To be truly honest with me, some characteristics I think I have, I don’t. I would like to think of myself as patient but I’m nowhere near as patient as I think. I may be patient with other people or patient in certain circumstances but I’m really not all that patient. I think this lack of patience allows me to stay in a state of disappointment. I work out and eat right, but I want changes now, knowing good and well that changes will take time. I don’t care, I want it now! So then I sit around disappointed in myself because I haven’t gotten the results I want today. It’s an ugly trait that I have to beat in order to be successful, that now mentality is slowly killing my growth. It’s amazing how one thing can change everything. That patience has been slowly preventing me from being successful.…